Two weeks ago, after (what I thought) was a casual run on the trails, my ankle became swollen and painful. We're talking, could-not-walk-kind-of-pain. I suppose that's what you get when you ignore those little pains for too long. Well of course I immediately went to a specialist to get an exam and explained my race/running situation. He promptly proceeded to tape me up in a soft cast, put me in a walking boot and ordered an MRI.
I have been testing my limits these last couple of days (along with the ankle brace) and while the more casual short runs on pavement have been fine, the longer trail runs have left me in a heap of mental goo...questioning my ability, sanity and tolerance for pain. Icing, heating and massage marginally helps but deep down, I know this injury is not just a flash-in-the-pan issue I can easily dismiss. It still hurts. Not to mention I have no ankle because it's disappeared under all the swelling (that's never good).
Could I go out and start the race? Yes.
Do I want to be out with my trail-running peeps? Very much.
Would I finish (either the 100k or 100m)? Highly unlikely.
Could I have permanent damage after the race? Possibly.
Would I end up back in my boot after the race? Absolutely.
At the end of the day, I have to be concerned for my long-term health and wellness. I don't want to go back to wearing a boot. I also want to continue running for a long time.
Could I "man up" and run it anyway? I suppose. But that would be my pride talking.
And pride doesn't have to walk around in that f*cking boot. I do. So instead, I'll "wisen up" and sit this one out.
I'm pretty sure I'll have a date with JJ next year.